So I am getting so excited about a baby boy! I was very worried, hence my previous post, about not having a girl. It took a day or two to kind of realize wow, this is for real, because let me tell you there is no denying that this baby is a boy! :)
As soon as I found out that it was a boy, any and all health concerns flew out of my mind. I do not stay up at night and worry, or spend hours examining my ultrasounds and googling. It is a God send that I have a peace of mind. I don't know if it is because I sub-consciously associate a daughter with the horrible experience from before, which I hope that is not the case, but I really think in my mind I did sort of think of this baby as the last one, but now he is a he, he has a whole new identity. I also wanted to post two comments that my best friend Sierra and my sister said that made me chuckle.
Sierra: "This baby will be the perfect little baby God intended for you, penis or no penis". LOL!
Natalie: "Boys are so much better than girls, girls get upset about silly things and are way over-dramatic, such as you being dissapointed your baby is not a girl. A boy would never do that".
I also realized that the past week, I actually grieved properly for Faith. Last year, I knew she was gone, but instead of mourning her death, I went straight for the infertility obsession and focused on getting pregnant again. I know it was my way of coping but I never properly said goodbye. So, I may not be meant to have a daughter, and that is ok. The condition Faith had affects 80% of females, so that may be the reason this baby is a boy. Whatever the reason, the Good Lord knows best and I am finally at peace. And for those of you that are sick of me talking about this, I'm done! Ha! Now onto the boy things.
Mason Reid is his name. Pics to come of his room, cherry furniture and nautical bedding from Pottery Barn. He is going to be a precious addition to the Turner's!
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